coco aka dr laura??

Do you ever get tired of the waiting period? The weird in between of not quite there yet but not where you were? They say that your 20's are supposed to be trial based. Explore your options, feeling free to have no strings attached. I'm not only talking about the opposite sex but everything. Education, music preference, living situation, best friend, job choice, hair color etc. I feel so new to life that committing to one thing seems premature, almost naive. Yet, laying around making no decisions whatsoever feels counterproductive. Where is my happy in between? How do you move forward while standing still?

To a young mind, fast forwarding to the easy times sounds like the only solution. Oh, how I have wished for a machine to take me to when everything is settled. Life already laid out just for my living.  But that makes being stuck in the present almost a curse. Forced between four walls of the "now" that can't be escaped. That is when I realized that every day is slipping between my fingers without a trace of change. I am about to preach something that you have heard may times, but please stick with me. Appreciate the process. It is not about major moments but the small ones that weave it together. Looking forward can be motivating, but obsessing over what is to come can be ruining.

As a new believer in this "live for now" philosophy, I am still struggling. But viewpoint is everything! Even though I do not have have my career goals set, I have a bomb job at an amazing accounting firm that teaches me every single day. My music preferences and style choices are still all over the map, but I like to think that contributes to my carefree and spontaneous attitude (that is what i tell myself anyway *wink*). You will be pleasantly surprised at my hair color of the moment, because it's blonder than blogger has ever seen! Even enough to beg the nickname Snow White (compliment?). I definitely do not have it together by any means. But I think this time of try now, commit later will make having everything figured out just that much sweeter. I may be standing still, but I am going to enjoy the view while I am at it.

Snow White hair bc pic or it didn't happen.